My little love is is about to turn seven months old and is about to go to her very first halloween party! We put on a party each year for our close friends full of nummy treats, good music and great company! I'm really excited for her first go at it! She is properly dressed to win the prize of best costume in a hand knit cape and booties as Little Red Riding hood, it's about the cutest thing I have ever seen in my life! LOL She works it well!
We've had a rough week her and I. She is trying hard to crawl but not getting far yet... I think the milk heavy tummy is hard to pull up LOL The front end pushes up and the back end pushes up... just not at the same time :-P I also believe we have a new tooth on the way that might be causing crabby baby.. not so fun!
I can't believe 7 months has passed with her in our lives. Time sure does fly! I am trying to enjoy it all even the rough days... though it can be a challenge!
The weather is becoming colder and colder now and our beautiful colors are starting to fall off the trees. Still love it though! Rowan is enjoying the leaves too, mostly the yummy taste of them LOL She seems very intrigued with all these changes. It makes me very nostalgic for when I was a child and enjoying the fall. My most fond memories come from playing in the fall with the colorful leaves. My mom by my side and my shaggy non-stylized poodle rummaging around as well. I am so excited at the prospect of giving good memories to my daughter. I too will cherish her first fall and winter. What an exciting time. Those cranky teething days and my messy home will NOT be what I remember about this once in a lifetime age. I will take the time to focus on memories for the future <3
Photos to come of my little pumpkin! Tee Hee!
Friday, October 28, 2011
Tuesday, October 4, 2011
6 months and in love!
A few days late putting this up...
My little love is 6 months old today! She is growing up so fast it's crazy! Life has been very intense since she joined our family, lots going on with her and with our careers and just life plans in general. I am glad I get to take the time now and then to really enjoy where we are at. This is one of those times. I Refuse to be so stressed out and edgy all the time. I feel the past few months I get crabby about how messy my house is, about plans not coming together fast enough, about not getting everything I want to do done.. in my time, and worrying about people judging me. I am going to do my level best to chill out the next few months and enjoy my baby and changing life. She is the most important project of my life after all. It is so important to celebrate her being 6 months because babyhood is passing by so fast. I look at her sleeping next to me.. and yes she still sleeps in bed with mom and dad... and pug LOL I look at her little face and remember all the nights I longed for this and would have done anything to be where I am now. Sometimes I get a big goofy grin in the middle of the night, my own little secret that I have my perfect little girl who is so smart and beautiful and a lovely little character to live with. This is real love <3
So six months old today! She is now 18.08 lbs my big girl! 27 1/4 inches long too! She has two teeth and possibly two more coming in these days. She sits up very very well on her own to play with her toys. She can roll over both ways and is very close to realizing she can crawl! My little pumpkin says Mama, Mom, Dada and Hey! We are already doing Elimination Communication with her and it's going VERY well. She pees on her potty and poops pretty much most of the time now. Her diapers stay dry so much longer. She seems to understand that it's more comfortable to stay dry.. though I doubt she has much real control yet, just an intuitive mommy LOL ;-)
My little one is adored by all her family and friends. Her grandparents all love her so much and play with her every chance they get. She is one lucky little person! Everyone loves her personality too, my little smiler. I can't wait to see what she grows into and what she loves in life. That is my biggest wish for her is happiness and ability to appreciate the world and people around her. I want her to be kind, self confident, creative, joyful and empathetic.
I want to record everything for her so she can see how much she is loved. Those big eyes that sparkle with joy are amazing, I need to remember them forever. She has the best little toes and chubby legs that kick kick kick in her bath. The softest fluffy reddish brown hair that smells of comfort to me. Little hands that I can't ever control, they want to examine everything in her world. I want to record it all.
Fall has now arrived and with it amazing beautiful colors and smells. Yummy food too! Lovely pumpkins and garden produce. It's no wonder it is my favorite time of year and one full of fond memories growing up. I Hope to give Rowan happy memories of this time too. Warm stews, jumping and playing in leaves. Hiking on beautiful trails through the mountains. Cuddling in for coco and cookies. Not to mention hot veggie soup with everything from the garden! Yes, this truly is a favorite time of year <3
My little love is 6 months old today! She is growing up so fast it's crazy! Life has been very intense since she joined our family, lots going on with her and with our careers and just life plans in general. I am glad I get to take the time now and then to really enjoy where we are at. This is one of those times. I Refuse to be so stressed out and edgy all the time. I feel the past few months I get crabby about how messy my house is, about plans not coming together fast enough, about not getting everything I want to do done.. in my time, and worrying about people judging me. I am going to do my level best to chill out the next few months and enjoy my baby and changing life. She is the most important project of my life after all. It is so important to celebrate her being 6 months because babyhood is passing by so fast. I look at her sleeping next to me.. and yes she still sleeps in bed with mom and dad... and pug LOL I look at her little face and remember all the nights I longed for this and would have done anything to be where I am now. Sometimes I get a big goofy grin in the middle of the night, my own little secret that I have my perfect little girl who is so smart and beautiful and a lovely little character to live with. This is real love <3
So six months old today! She is now 18.08 lbs my big girl! 27 1/4 inches long too! She has two teeth and possibly two more coming in these days. She sits up very very well on her own to play with her toys. She can roll over both ways and is very close to realizing she can crawl! My little pumpkin says Mama, Mom, Dada and Hey! We are already doing Elimination Communication with her and it's going VERY well. She pees on her potty and poops pretty much most of the time now. Her diapers stay dry so much longer. She seems to understand that it's more comfortable to stay dry.. though I doubt she has much real control yet, just an intuitive mommy LOL ;-)
My little one is adored by all her family and friends. Her grandparents all love her so much and play with her every chance they get. She is one lucky little person! Everyone loves her personality too, my little smiler. I can't wait to see what she grows into and what she loves in life. That is my biggest wish for her is happiness and ability to appreciate the world and people around her. I want her to be kind, self confident, creative, joyful and empathetic.
I want to record everything for her so she can see how much she is loved. Those big eyes that sparkle with joy are amazing, I need to remember them forever. She has the best little toes and chubby legs that kick kick kick in her bath. The softest fluffy reddish brown hair that smells of comfort to me. Little hands that I can't ever control, they want to examine everything in her world. I want to record it all.
Fall has now arrived and with it amazing beautiful colors and smells. Yummy food too! Lovely pumpkins and garden produce. It's no wonder it is my favorite time of year and one full of fond memories growing up. I Hope to give Rowan happy memories of this time too. Warm stews, jumping and playing in leaves. Hiking on beautiful trails through the mountains. Cuddling in for coco and cookies. Not to mention hot veggie soup with everything from the garden! Yes, this truly is a favorite time of year <3
Tuesday, July 26, 2011
I've wanted you for sooo long my little love
Ok I am here to talk about parenting after infertility. Something I'm learning more and more about each day. My precious little girl made her way into our lives on the 29th of March 2011, after 4 years of trying to conceive her. We were sooo happy to become parents after years and years of wanting a family. The change into being a mom after this wild up and down experience of infertility was so much harder than I expected it to be. There is so much to learn, do and figure out.
My baby Rowan was born after 36 hours of labour 24 of which were natural with no drugs then 12 with epidural and then finally a c-section in the end! It sure was a wild ride! I had planned to go natural, my husband and I took classes about natural ways to cope with labour from a great group of Doulas. The stuff we learned was still very helpful to me even though I did end in a c-section. I still feel I earned a badge for the many hours of contraction upon contraction with very little space between. If things had progressed better then I am certain I could have birthed her vaginally. As it was the contractions stopped being useful once I had the epidural. I was stuck at 6cm dilated and many hours it wouldn't change. Rowan's head began to get swollen and I was sooo tired after no sleep for 36 hours my husband and I finally decided it was time to do a c-section. She was and is a beautiful perfect baby. She was born at 9.1 lbs my big girl especially considering I am normally a small person at about 114lbs before pregnancy! Rowan is a perfectly healthy girl and has a big set of lungs on her! She is a girl that knows what she wants and when.
This brings me to my reason for doing a blog about parenting after infertility... it isn't easy! Even if you want this little person in your life so badly... it's still tough. Of course it gets better and better with time but the beginning is rough! You need all the help you can get and you have to learn to be less critical of yourself too. You have all these ideas about how you want to parent and what you will do with this new bundle, just a picture in your mind like a treasured favorite song that you know the lyrics to. When reality hits things can go off key and fast! It's time to improv and learn what will really work for you. Sometimes you have to drastically change what you had in mind and just roll with it and not care that you are not the parent you thought you would be, you are growing and changing into the best mama for your baby. You will get tons of advice from others too and some will be good and some not so good, sort through it and just take what feels good for you. Go with your instincts, if something works and feels good then work with it no matter what others say... or yourself for that matter! Babies grow and change so fast and throw curve balls at you constantly one thing will work one week then the next it won't. Some things might stay consistent for a while then change. The thing is you get better at staying calm and just trying something new without worrying that it's the end of the world.
I think all mamas out there but especially those that have gone through infertility figure they will be perfect moms and yet they already have so much emotional upheaval maybe even some depression going on that new mamahood takes a while to get the hang of. For me a good 3 months ... maybe even 4 before I stopped panicking at every cry my little pumpkin made. She is going to cry!! She is actually a very sensitive baby too so it makes the job harder. She will not be perfectly happy little baby all the time and that does not make me a bad mom, it's just reality. I know lots of new moms say how they fell in love at first sight and I did in a way... but it took me much longer to LOVE LOVE her. I knew she was mine and that I would do anything for her but there were times in the following weeks even after trying for 4 years that I still felt like... OMG what have I done to my life.. this sucks I don't want to be a parent. It's ok to feel that way, hormones are still running wild in your system for a few months after birth and you don't know how to perfectly sooth and care for your baby yet, just takes time and patience. Also knowing that you WILL learn how to be a great mom. Everyone needs to learn, so be patient. Now 4 months later and I can't see my life without this little ball of fluffy cuteness LOL
In this blog I will tell you about things I have learned both practical and emotional. Just discuss the experience of being a new mom after infertility. I will talk about cloth diapering, nursing, parenting in general and all the choices I made for my family... and some ways that I changed my tune!
My baby Rowan was born after 36 hours of labour 24 of which were natural with no drugs then 12 with epidural and then finally a c-section in the end! It sure was a wild ride! I had planned to go natural, my husband and I took classes about natural ways to cope with labour from a great group of Doulas. The stuff we learned was still very helpful to me even though I did end in a c-section. I still feel I earned a badge for the many hours of contraction upon contraction with very little space between. If things had progressed better then I am certain I could have birthed her vaginally. As it was the contractions stopped being useful once I had the epidural. I was stuck at 6cm dilated and many hours it wouldn't change. Rowan's head began to get swollen and I was sooo tired after no sleep for 36 hours my husband and I finally decided it was time to do a c-section. She was and is a beautiful perfect baby. She was born at 9.1 lbs my big girl especially considering I am normally a small person at about 114lbs before pregnancy! Rowan is a perfectly healthy girl and has a big set of lungs on her! She is a girl that knows what she wants and when.
This brings me to my reason for doing a blog about parenting after infertility... it isn't easy! Even if you want this little person in your life so badly... it's still tough. Of course it gets better and better with time but the beginning is rough! You need all the help you can get and you have to learn to be less critical of yourself too. You have all these ideas about how you want to parent and what you will do with this new bundle, just a picture in your mind like a treasured favorite song that you know the lyrics to. When reality hits things can go off key and fast! It's time to improv and learn what will really work for you. Sometimes you have to drastically change what you had in mind and just roll with it and not care that you are not the parent you thought you would be, you are growing and changing into the best mama for your baby. You will get tons of advice from others too and some will be good and some not so good, sort through it and just take what feels good for you. Go with your instincts, if something works and feels good then work with it no matter what others say... or yourself for that matter! Babies grow and change so fast and throw curve balls at you constantly one thing will work one week then the next it won't. Some things might stay consistent for a while then change. The thing is you get better at staying calm and just trying something new without worrying that it's the end of the world.
I think all mamas out there but especially those that have gone through infertility figure they will be perfect moms and yet they already have so much emotional upheaval maybe even some depression going on that new mamahood takes a while to get the hang of. For me a good 3 months ... maybe even 4 before I stopped panicking at every cry my little pumpkin made. She is going to cry!! She is actually a very sensitive baby too so it makes the job harder. She will not be perfectly happy little baby all the time and that does not make me a bad mom, it's just reality. I know lots of new moms say how they fell in love at first sight and I did in a way... but it took me much longer to LOVE LOVE her. I knew she was mine and that I would do anything for her but there were times in the following weeks even after trying for 4 years that I still felt like... OMG what have I done to my life.. this sucks I don't want to be a parent. It's ok to feel that way, hormones are still running wild in your system for a few months after birth and you don't know how to perfectly sooth and care for your baby yet, just takes time and patience. Also knowing that you WILL learn how to be a great mom. Everyone needs to learn, so be patient. Now 4 months later and I can't see my life without this little ball of fluffy cuteness LOL
In this blog I will tell you about things I have learned both practical and emotional. Just discuss the experience of being a new mom after infertility. I will talk about cloth diapering, nursing, parenting in general and all the choices I made for my family... and some ways that I changed my tune!
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